i went up to misszeng to ask her about it today,
but many people were asking math,
then after that,
im late for cca already.
not late actually.
just that i need to make sure i bring my bass out before they arrange the chairs,
if not i wont be able to get out.
unless i lift my bass UP HIGH.
oh well.
i really think im not capable of doing those stuff.
im sure theres other people whos.
much more capable compared to me,
im useless.

life is sad.

today,
we were told our history marks will be based on a freaking hell graded assignment,
i did badly.
really badly D:
how.
there goes my gpa.

life is sad.

during cca,
after their break,
kennard came to the classroom.
teached me wu ti.
all the jian qiang jian ruo,
bounces and stuff,
i think if i am the one teaching i'll totally vomit blood.
thanks kennard, really.
im thinking..
what will happen if you leave us,
in a few months time.
me and cheahjing will totally be left to rot.
with ryan? :X
oh gosh.
how i wish kennard will be joining the jc co.
please please please ;x
then he'll still be able to teach me,
that shall be my.
wish.

i have really low learning ability.
i need kennard to repeat like dontknow how many times.
before i can remember
which is loud, which is soft.
which is long, which is short.
which is jian qiang, which is jian ruo.
which is up bow, which is down bow.
arghh,
im really sorry.
i'll practice hard,
really.
but im disappointed with myself D:

life is sad.

life,
let me go.
please.